February 2012
Those hugs where you don't want to let go.
Mom: What's wrong?
My mind: I used to do so well in school but I'm not anymore.
My mind: The people I call friends, aren't my actual friends.
My mind: I'm constantly feeling alone.
My mind: I'm starting to look at myself different.
My mind: Nothing feels the same anymore.
My mind: I feel like I'm going to fail at anything I try to do.
My mind: I haven't been eating that much and I'm hungry all the time.
My mind: I feel like no one cares about me.
My mind: I just wanna sleep all day and never wake up.
Me: Oh nothing I'm fine.
It’s kinda stupid isn’t it, you say you don’t like me doing those things, yet you go do it yourself. Hypocrite, but then again, who isn’t one?
parents: here's a list of reasons why you're not meeting my standards
me: okay...
boys: here are all the reasons i don't want you
me: okay...
best friend: here's everything you're doing wrong
me: okay...
random people at school: here's all the reasons we laugh at you
me: okay...
everyone: why is your self-esteem so low? jeez. it's annoying.
me:
me:
me:
me:
me: okay...